I'm Numb

just when i was thinking of a 'hi there!'for the starters..


well, i don't know what's wrong with me. but i'm not okay.

i slept too much, i stare into space, i suffer from hunger, i'm restless, worthless, lazy, tired, a useless wreck.

i think, i'm under pressure.

cause i feel empty (yknow how food gets me, i just need them, and today i need them the most).

and when i'm empty i get stressed and i can't seem to do anything.

i didn't study.

at all.

so i cry.

i cry and cry and cry.

blaming myself and not thinking straight.

really, it's just difficult to describe, you see.

it's like, i need happy pills.

here it goes :

i slept after sahur, until a bright morning came (really, i mostly wake up when the morning is still dark. on the other hand i should've stayed up and studied).

and i didn't take my bath at all.

i slowly cleaned up my room, but it was undone.

i went online, lying here and there, watched the tv, lying some more...

ALL DAY.

and cried too.

without an exact reason.

i was about to give up, like you know, nak bukak puasa.

mama asked me to do so too.

but i managed until dusk.

so we ate and all.

and i'm still... not okay.

so then we watched this hindustan singing programme on Zee and laughed our heads off.

and still...

i had my bath, scrubbed and all.

i was better.

then i felt like i wanted a ride or a supper.

but my brother was tired.

and i still felt empty.

i just need someone.

i started imagining watching korean movies with LB, so i called her home, hoping her mum would drop her here eventhough it's half past nine.

but she wasn't around.

and i was soo bummed x(

i had no one.

so i went online some more, and my brother started.

tak blaja ke?

i felt bad. i hated myself. i went out when my brother was about to finish his words.

i felt sooooo bad by then. i felt guilty, leaving him like that.

i hate myself soooo much for letting my brother down.

daaamn, fuck me fuck me !

so i cuddled myself under the covers.

i texted MF.

can i talk to you?

and i continued crying.

i cried and cried and at the same time figuring it out.

what is it? what's happening?

i couldn't take it.

so i called 'I.

and he knew straight away.

he could sense my sorrow.

he's the best.

he assured me and sounded worried that i cried (ok even if he was just acting, it made me feel better) and he kept on encouraging me and put all the blame on him if i don't manage to get through.

like, if i don't get straight As, i can call him and swear to him and go mad and shout and kick and scream.

everything's on him.

at the same time, there was an incoming call from MF, but i didn't switch.


i hung up, but i still cried.

texted MF again, said sorry i was on the phone.

then he called.

he was not good at all, he sounded helpful, actually, but not better than 'I.

but he made me laugh a lot.

and i stopped crying.


there.


___________________________________________________________

Updates :


there's loads, but i'm too lazy.

but i'm gonna tell some.

- met epul yesterday.

- once texted a 'helo' to MF,

and he called,

and i just stare,

stared at the phone, beaming buzzing its hell out,

grabbing for me.

he called thrice or so, for two days.

i just don't know what to do.

don't know how to react, how to respond.

i just wanted to ignore him and play dead and make him misses me.

but that never seems to happen.


dammmmn.


i think he's acting pale ON PURPOSE, probably to get rid of me.

how on earth did those days happened????????

fuck all the system.


oh and,

he told me he wanted to meet up yesterday.

I KNEW IT.

i knew it was yesterday.

billy even said so, she asked me to call him and meet up while we were outside the library and watched all the cars passing by after the friday prayers.

i said :

"maybe the fate is today. but i'm too late so it's never gonna happen."

billy said YEAH.

and it was true.

he was around sec. 2, he said.

and i got a missed call when i got back, around 2pm. exactly the same time.


oh God.

well, i wouldn't wanna meet up that way anyway.

with a bunch of friends around,

me not in my best clothes,

i knew he'll be coming and i'll get all tummy-twisted and probably i'll puke.


what am i?

FREAKING IN LOVE???????????????????????


hell NO NO NO, he's not worth it.

but i .. still ... waste my GREAT TIME ON A WHATSIT WHOM I CALLED DEAR MEIN HERZSCHLAG.

and you wanna know what that meaaaannnnnttt????


MY HEARTBEAT.

MY FREAKING HEARTBEAT......

BLOOMING HEARTBEAT......................


TSK.

Damn Whatsit

Baby, there's something going on today
But I say nothing, nothing, nothing,
Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing

MF

Baby, you've been going so crazy
Lately, nothing seems to be going right
Solo, why do you have to get so low
You're so...
You've been waiting in the sun too long

But if you sing, sing, sing, sing, sing, sing
For the love you bring won't mean a thing
Unless you sing, sing, sing, sing

Colder, crying on your shoulder
Hold her, and tell her everythings gonna be fine
Surely, you've been going to early
Hurry, cause no one's gonna be stopped

But if you sing, sing, sing, sing, sing, sing
For the love you bring won't mean a thing
Unless you sing, sing, sing, sing

Baby, there's something going on today
But I say nothing, nothing, nothing,
Nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing

I cant sleep tonight
Everybody saying everythings alright
Still I cant close my eyes
Im seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
I cant stand myself
Im being held up by invisible men
Still life on a shelf when
I got my mind on something else
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
Its so cold
I cant sleep tonight
Everybody saying everythings alright
Still I cant close my eyes
Im seeing a tunnel at the end of all these lights
Sunny days
Where have you gone?
I get the strangest feeling you belong
Why does it always rain on me?
Is it because I lied when I was seventeen?
Why does it always rain on me?
Even when the sun is shining
I cant avoid the lightning
Oh, where did the blue skies go?
And why is it raining so?
Its so cold
Why does it always rain on me?
Why does it always rain...

The Real HelloGoodbye

on hiatusssss

On Top

i'm wondering....

am i like, getting everything i want?

O : if dapat straight A's org blanja awak + dapat keluar date ngan org ;)


like, wuh?

a senior, who i used to be gaga over, *and actually got to befriend him, great.

lala's right, i'm lucky, as in - LUCKY.


and Afl texted and asked me for a movie date after the big exam.

...

i'm not complaining, no nooo *hands up


i'm liking it all :)

all i have to get is, straight As.

Faces

he is the reason why i'm soooo freaking in love with Kim, don't they look exactly the same? ugh scrumptious.

this guy in front, when i see him sings in the tv, he reminds me of WB, his features yknow.

R told me he wanted to keep his hair like F I, i think if i'm not mistaken.

My Love Is For Her

Lean On Me Now

:)(:

I made this Flash Music Player at MyFlashFetish.com.

Hold On!

lalalalala :)

Papa just got back from Egypt, Germany, and other places God knows where.

he bought me an escada perfume, Into The Blue.

went to see lala's niece, turned out i saw the cutie before she even did !

he he, comel je.

her sister said she'll stay with us sometimes and i can bring her around.

aaah, fuuuuun !

*ok, i know i hate kids, but hey this little girl is just like my own niece :)

i mean yknow, my friends are all mostly, the youngest.

so we don't have babies around.

aah, gonna hang out with a baby all throughout the holiday !!

anyway, this time, i really am gonna be away (did i say this like only 10 times?)

well yeah, all infos are going to be jolted down on a notebook.

i mean, the big exam is only a week away and i'm stil blogging about useless shits?

not gonna help.

i'm gonna hold myself from all these.

and then treat myself with 8As.

(^_^)

Highlights Of The Day :

like, OH MY GOD !

lala's sister got a baby girl ! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah !

i'm soooo freaking happy, lala's got a niece !!!!!!

which means i do to ;D

i'm gonna buy her lots and lots and lots of frocks and little cute mary janes and skirts and headbands and barbies and and..... :)

oh how ecstatic :']

and so, school was good.

the papers, i had to say, easy.

not going anywhere today, though.

OK, they're getting on my nerves.




i'm outta here, pfft

When Will I See Your Face Again

Here I Am, Everyday,
Since You Said, You'd Come Again,
But It's Not Fair, Cos You're Not Here,
I Wait In Vain, But Nothing Has Chaaanged,

I'm A Flower, Soaking In The Rain,
If I Could Wish One Thing, I'd Hear You Call My Name,

(Chorus)

So When Will I See Your Face Again,
When Will You Touch My Life Again (ohh yeah),
When Will I Breathe You In Again (ha),
I Think I Love Youuu...Will I See Your Face Again,

(2nd Verse)

Little Thing, Like The Rain Coming,
She Looked At Me A Certain Kind Of Way,
Tell Me Girl, Where Are You Nowww,
'Cos I Don't Know How Much Longer I can Waaait,

I'm A Dreamer, Waiting For The Sun,
When You're Coming In, I know My Life's Begun,
Tell Me Girl...

(Chorus)

When Will I See Your Face Again (ohh yeaaah),
When Will You Touch My Life Again (ummm um),
When Will I Breathe You In Again,
I Think I Love Youuu, Will I See Your Face Again,

(Bridge)

You Know That All My Life I've Been Waaaiting,
Waiting For Sooome, Someone Like You To Love Me,
You Can't Come By Like An Angel, Into My Life,
And then Fly Awaaaay, Flyyyyyy Away,

Oh Honey, Cos I, Uh Baby, Ba Ba Doo Yeah, Ohh ohhhh,
Sing, I've Only Seen Youuu, Oh, I Said, Uh huh, I Said I Said, Yeah (woo)

(Chorus)

When Will I See Your Face Again (I Wanna See You Once In My Life),
When Will You Touch My Life Again, (Wanna See You Twice In My Life),
When Will I Breathe You In Again (ohhh),
I Think I Love Youuu, Will I See Your Face Again,

I said, see Bap pa da doo ba ba (ohhh),
Bap Ba Doo Yeah, That's What We Do Yeaahhh (ohh),
When Will iii See Your Face Again My Friend,
Oh Yeah, I Think You Gotta Let Me Know Yeah,
Ohh Yeahhh...

Pleasant

yeah, but on the other hand, HA called me a fucking poser who plays nice :/

like, W-T-V

*not much mean it, i actually care, yknow how it gets me when i know someone hates me.

so,

had three papers today, was ok.

caught AEA glancing back umpteenth times *lala agreed too!

zaw walked me home, but then mama had to drive back to school to fetch lala, she was staying over.

decided to go to the library, and she made me invited AEA.

he said he can't, ada hal, esok boleh?

i was like uwaaaa but hey at least he asked me out for tomorrow.

a few minutes later, he informed that he was going.

i was like jumping up and down and laughing,

lala went like - omg, he cancelled out his plans just fer ya.


at the library, i thought he was a jerk *only for a while, cause he sat with his friends instead of me - and lala.

i was like uuughhh aaaghh i don't like all these WB types.

turned out that he was waiting for his friend to go and then he came to me, at the same time lala stood up and went to kim, thank God.

we settled down and started studying etc

found out he was actually going to Ampang, and thinking, it really was nice, he cancelled out the plan.

the cute thing was,

he let me taught him by writing with my left hand, upside down. it was funny and cuuute.

and all other stuff.

went for tuition, - MF called; always at the wrong time, and picked up lala from the bazaar sec 2, had break fast with k ayu, was sooo full.

oh, and i got this letter from the boarding school, informing i'll be taking an IQ test, one day after the finishing of my big exam, pfft

will be having PAI and Maths II for tomorrow.

and maths workshop on saturday.


let's see what will happen.



*confused

Victory's The Drug

-absolutely.

going to have History and BM for tomorrow's first day of post-trial.

yikes!

the good part is,

i'm at the veeeeeeeery back of the hall, and veeeeeeeeery near to AEA.

speaking of him,

went to the library with him, before going to my BM tuition.

it was nice, he didn't wear a denim jacket this time, just a fitted black shirt and a neat pair of jeans and his usual cool slip-ons.

not bad, eh?

his senior friend came and taught him Maths, giggled off his careless mistakes.

while in tuition, i asked cikgu s about Sem.

she said she told him we have similar faces,

and his respond was exactly like mine,

ye ke cikgu? ada jodoh la tu.

and he's going to give his picture - teacher made him

cikgu, i'm telling you, nak kenen2kan kitorg !

she found this clean tissue in my pencil case and asked me to write something on it, lol

so i wrote,

Hello =)

and teacher said, that's all u manage to say? put yr address and phone number. lol

then,

Mama fetched me and went to the nearest mall and met up with Abu and other mates.

spent quite a while in the MPH while waiting for dusk, and Mama went walking around.

read a story book, the one i read at Mid V.

it was cute, about a pretend boyf and all.... reminds me of :)

and then i got a text from AEA.

he wanted to ask me something and said jgn mara tau.

okaaaay, i was curious.

rupa2nya, he asked about HA, he saw me talking with him early this morning.

* he was alert ! AND curious!

x)(x

and we texted a lot more in indon ;)

went home, eeeeeeeeeeeeeend.


now i'm going to revise on this good web billy let me share her account with, xoxo

i can actually hang myself, i mean like, apart from the Net yknow? but there's just so many things to say, everyday! like more and more and more.

cant help it.








cheers.

Oh

fyi, i deleted my first mys acc.

because for some reason, there's no point of keeping it, when there's no more MF.

it was just plain memories, so when he deleted his, nothing was left.

yeah.

AND,

i replied in indon too, and he then replied in indon full-ly :D

and i was like,




ya udah, daaaaaa :)

Quick

today's like the most bahagia day ever - # was absent *syukur ke hadrat Ilahi...


well !

had tuition - SLEEPY.

texted AEA :)

he texted in indon heeeee :)

i told him about HA.

he didn't say kau aku at first, it was -insert my name here-

:D

cute cute ng sha talaga !

OK.


HA is still bugging me though, calling and stuff.

GELI JEEE !!!!

haktui, bwek bwek x(

heeeeeeih.

oh, tomorrow's going to be my last day - having FUN in the A class.


OK lah, wanna continue texting :)




CIAO

I Need

a pretend boyf

like, SERIOUSLY.

he's calling me now (HA) like for umpteenth times.

and trespassing my class (exagarrating) everyday, is not nice.

darn it !

he's so psychotic, yeah, that's what he is.

everyone knows that.

there's a lot more, but no thanks, i won't write any further.

oh, and i just realised, it's been two weeks, me and my new class.

this coming Thursday,

going to switch back.

yeay + sob

at the same time going to have my post trial by then.

and i'm still blogging.....

last but not least,

The Other 'I Need's :

1. a pop 9

2. a nikon camera, probably a demand if i get straight As.

3. a lipstick/whatever to camouflage my lips

4. a compact powder

5. a white eyeliner

6. new jeans and pants (i'm getting wider and fatter, which actually, makes me happy. i'm not like those obsessed skinny girls, puhleeeeeeaze)

7. new long sleeve apparels

8. my brother's handphone

9. a USB

10. a new pencil case (the one where i can put pins w/o worrying it will damage)

i'll check when i finally get them ;)

hopefully...

Bouncy

ajajajajajajajaja :D



at the same time, i'm extremely annoyed =.='

there's so much to tell !

OK.

LAST TWO DAYS

went to the airport x) and sent papa.

bought turkish delight !

and went home, listening to 101.5 fm , it was the dangdut slot. HAHA !

it was a hella fun i'm telling you.

oh and before that, AEA texted me, asking if i'm going to tarawih and if i'm going to A mall the next day :)


YESTERDAY

he texted me again :)(:

-insert my name here- , grk lbrry skrg blh?

hee, takyah faham la okay.

i couldn't though. had a day out with Mama and Abg.

went to A mall for a while, and bought this pair of wedges i've been drooling on for months. my mum assured me it doesn't matter just how tall i am. when i started wearing it, i was taller than EVERYONE else, almost.

it hurts.

went to mid v.

dadadada.

there was this guy i remember (out of gazillion ones),

who looked like my senior last year, labelled 'the cutest guy in school' in the school magazine,

looking at me.

as i headed to the escalator,

he turned around and looked again,

i was just after finishing my smile to my brother.

he looked....

he's pierced.

he was cute.

texted AEA near break fast :)

he told me about his day.

adorable, eh?

i couldn't even believe it myself.

texted with MF.

i'm telling you, it's like, happening again.

without sparks, that is.


TODAY

DULL DULL DULL.

HA kept bugging meeeee ! ~x(

thought the dullness was going to last forever,

but the highlight was :

no History tuition, ganti esok.

which meant had to go to tomorrow's class today *takyah paham

I's idea.

which also meant = AEA's class :)(:

and Snow's.

though i'm neutral about him now.

he was sooooooooo sweet, AEA that is.

and Snow talked to me :O

'ape ah, layan dangdut'

well, AEA's just so nice and I agreed, it's positive :)

he sat beside me when i waited for my mum, and we chatted blablabla with Snow and Coke and all, whatever

he he he :)

this time, it was not just OK, it was great :)

there's was this time when we argued about either North goes in or out, so i asked him,

U keluar kan?

tak, i tak keluar.

lol

AND,

MF called me while i was in class.

shocking, september is really back.. *melancholic

again, without beautiful sparks.

and he even texted :

dah habis tuition?

daaaaamn.....

then he called around 1905

he said he was bored and all.

he now calls when he's bored,

like those days..


OK.

My Playlist

I made this Flash Music Player at MyFlashFetish.com.

I Have To Admit This

perhaps,

as lame as it sounds,

i need a boyf.

i know i'm too young to go lovey dovey silly willy shitty,

but i can't stand it !

looking at people with their cute pictures,

boyf faces and names on general etc...

on banners !

haiyaaaaa

lonely nya aku....

Fuck All The System

x(

people keep making my life miserable.

anyways,

MF deleted his myspace :((

damn maaan, daaaaaaaaaamn.

as lunatic as i sound - thank God i've saved his old comments, not that the new ones really matters.

but i didn't save mine to him.

i'm CRAZY, tell me about it.

but no i'll never change myself just so people would finally accept me.

that's what i learnt today.

called him and chatted, cut in mid-talk.

and he didn't call back.

fuck ignorance.

billy cameover and we studied.

tonight am going to airport = YEAY.

papa's going to Egypt :(


hmmm

Exhausted

you give me stomach ache.

everywhere i go,

i hope for something significant.

every moment spent in the car,

i search for something pleasant.

every pause of my heartbeat,

i wait for you, jubilant.



*

Sayang

:(




your voice is like the most beautiful remedy,

your face is like the most beautiful scenery,

i happen to come down and make you happy,

but you go up and make me feel like a nobody.

Nostalgic

library was okay, yeah just okay.

he asked me if i wanted to join a study group this sunday but naah, i might be following my dad.

had stomach ache today :(

and HA keeps bugging me ~x(

he keep asking me to follow him to the art event tomorrow, saying our art group was called =.=' and he cancelled our interview so we can have fun and he'll but anything i want =.=' x10000


i mean, do people actually know we exist? like, we're only fifteen - years old.

on the other hand, i badly wanna go. i've always wanted to go to these kind of stuff.

in hopes of..

HOPE HOPE HOPE, ish shitto.

but then again, two weeks to the big exam. mcmlah boleh pegi.

i don't wanna go with HA anyway :/


but i wanna goooooooo!





uwaa

A L

Ecstatic

:)

it's the first day of the fasting month, which makes me recall of... :/ september 06.

got a message from MF at 3am but only realized it at 7.

after about 4 minutes of arguing with myself, decided to call him.

he said he wanted to show off.

i thought he got J's number x( but NO, he decided not to show off pulak.

apa2 lah.


it's been like the dullest day,

BUT,

AEA came to my house to hand me a tuition book i have to borrow :)

and i suppose, he was flirting!



AEA : kau tuition pukul brp?

Me: dua setengah

AEA :*looked at his watch. pegi dgn sape?

Me: hmm entah. iman kot, taktau.

AEA: *looked at me,his eyes saying i can drive you there but i happen to be here a little early.

AEA: ok ah.

Me: ok, thank you, bye!

Me: *walked inside

AEA: *waited, untill i was nearly at the door, then started moving and looked at me

Me: *waved


:)(:

called billy straight away, i just couldn't stop laughing *happy

awh i should've talked a lot more then he'll just drive me - crazy.

HA HA HA

:)

*i thought i was seriously away?

_______________________________________________________

like, O-M-G.

haha.

ok so had tuition, and V came very late. he made me pissed, so W-T-V lah dia tu. pfft.

went for bazaar ramadhan with Papa.

first, at kompleks.

nothing interesting.

second, my housing area.

same goes here.

third, the stadium.

nothing too!

ended up having McDon =.=' poor Papa, layan aku yang mengada nih, tehee

i met a friggin' lot of people too.

- seniors
- Putri's ex-scandal
- my substitute teacher
- schoolmates
- blablabla

the best one,

- MF's friend, who looks 40% like him :)

texted MF then, and then he called.

i decided to pick up eventhough Papa's beside.

he said yeah his college's here.

ooooh.

thank God Papa didn't ask anything.

around 8pm,

AEA texted.

AEA: ada kad perpustakaan tak?

Me: tkd, asal?

AEA: esok petang kau free tak? aku nak ajak kau study dkt library..

Me: boleh kot :)

like, i was asked out on a date?

i told Billy, dd and MF.

so MF called me again and we chatted.

which meant,

today's calls with him = Three

* i told my brother about him, finally

HelloGoodbye

i have to be SERIOUSLY away, seriously.

what would i treat myself with? hmmm.

well, seriously.

BYE.

ABC

= Ais Batu Kacang :)

tuition was soooooooooo much fun!

cikgu gave ALL of us a treat of the great scrumptious ABC and Dini,Mei,Fid,Ariel,Syah,Adl,kucing hitam,Em and i went down the road and ordered for all of us.

while waiting for those yummy ABCs, we hanged out at the playground nearby and listen to the songs at Fid's PSP and took pictures and chatted and got closer with Mei.

we were all soooooo cute :) esp my current competitor; Ariel. he's with braces and his cheekbones just show without him even smiling properly. cuute.

and i made Syah talked - the extremely quiet. i suppose he loosen up a little too much he offered me his drink o_0

OK so we ate the ABCs while cikgu taught us BM.

hella great :)

then met up with C at the junction and went to the shops nearby for some pens (me) and sardines for the dog (C).

got home after dusk. tsk tsk.

it was fun though.

today's been fun.

very fun.

;)

aagh i have to get rid of this!

Yevrus

What's your favorite color?
- every colour created is just nice

Explain your political beliefs.
- i'm still young :]

Where did you get your last email from?
- yonatan =)

Why do you admire people?
- bcs of their intelligence and attitude

What's your favorite store?
- city beach, excess bookstore

How tall are you?
- taller than you actually imagine

Do you look like your mom or your dad?
- no clue, mixed opinions

Are you ghetto?
- nope

What is your screen name?
- siti hamidah

Explain what you think about dating.
- nice

Do you have long or short hair?
- short

How do you vent anger?
- i eat, or listen to good songs

One rumor that's been spread about you:
- hmmmmm tiada

Are you registered to vote? (And have you yet?)
- nope, not yet

Are you a vegetarian?
- i wish so

MySpace and me

Do you post chain bulletins very often?
- dont believe in such bullshits ;]

When you get on myspace, how long are you usually on?
- quite long

Do you have a blog?
- sure :)

Who have you met in real life after meeting them online?
- ramai

Have you ever missed a meal because you were busy on myspace?
- yeah i think :/

Would you cry if MySpace stopped working?
- perhaps ;O

How many times a day do you go on myspace?
- once or twice

Have you ever been late to work because of myspace?
- no

How many people do you have on your friends list?
- sikit je

How many people have you invited to MySpace?
- -

Have you ever posted a comment for Tom?
- pernah try

Why do you use myspace?
- bcs it's how i see my friends' updates and communicate easily with em

Would you date someone you met online?
- i did

Is myspace the first thing you do when you wake up?
- nope

Did you take a picture of yourself specifically for myspace?
- everyone does that

My Top _

1. Diner Boy

2. Summer Love

3. 7E Guy

4. _

5. _

G'Day Mates

:)

today's been pretty well.

cancelled on going to the library with C and followed mum to SMC for the dentist instead.

now am going to tuition, and maybe meet up with C after that.

Ahoy

i can't think of anything better =.='

and so, helloooooo.

today's been normal.

last night, had a dream about K :/

*shuuuuuuuucks

went for tuition, V was absent etc

had pizza wit I after that and chatted untill dusk.

went to tesco.

that's all.

goodnight :)

*i haaave to think of a way to get rid of all these.




XOXO

<3

I made this Flash Music Player at MyFlashFetish.com.

Pick ur top 8 friends, and mark it down. then answer the questions, even though it may take a while.

1. anna
2. billy
3. nana
4. dini
5. lala
6. dinie
7. amirul
8. kim





_______________
NUMBER 8
_______________

1. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN 8?
10 years ;)

2. HAVE YOU EVER DATED 8?
fer sure ;)

3. IS NUMBER 8 ONE OF YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS?
fer sure ;)

4. HAVE YOU EVER KISSED 8?
nope lol, ayat best = GELLI JEEE

5. Name one favorite memory with 8?
langkawi !

6. DO YOU TRUST 8?
i trust no one

7. WOULD YOU KEEP A SECRET FROM 8?
yeah

8. WOULD YOU TAKE A ROAD TRIP WITH 8?
fer suuuuuure ;)

9. IS 8 DATING ANYONE ON UR TOP 8?
nope

10. ARE YOU IN 8,,S TOP 24/12/8/ WHATEVER?
yeah ;)


________________
NUMBER 7
________________

12. NAME ONE INTERESTING THING ABOUT NUMBER 7:
he's a-d-o-r-a-b-l-e

13. WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR 7?
yeaaaaaaaaaah

14. ONE THING 7 IS GOOD AT?
sleeping =)

15. ARE YOU OLDER OR YOUNGER THAN 7?
younger :}

16. HAVE YOU EVER HUGGED # 7?
in the misty air lol

17. WHEN WILL YOU SEE #7 NEXT?
God knows when!

18. ARE YOU .. LIST?
apa?

19. HAVE YOU EVER CHATTED WITH #7?
in the misty air :D

20. HOW DID YOU MEET YOUR #7?
through the tv rofl

21. WOULD YOU TRUST THEM WITH YOUR LIFE?
never will i trust anyone


_______________
NUMBER 6
_______________

22. HAS 6 DONE ANYTHING ILLEGAL?
perhaps

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY REGRETS WITH 6?
i regret nothing in life ;)

24. HAVE YOU EVER WORKED WITH # 6?
pernah tolong dia buat assignment :D

25. When did you last see 6?
someday :)

26. ARE YOU IN 6,,S TOP 8/12/24 WHATEVER?
sure :)

27. EVER LAUGHED WITH 6?
fer suuuuure ;)

28. WOULD 6 BE THERE FOR YOU?
sometimes

29. WOULD YOU BE THERE FOR 6?
sure

30. WHAT DO YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT 6?
taktau


_______________
NUMBER 5
_______________

31. HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW 5?
very much well

33. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN NUMBER 5?
8 years :)

34. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU’RE WITH 5?
laugh excessively

35. HOW DID YOU MEET 5?
primary school

36. WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE ABOUT 5?
her ego ;p

37. DO YOU KNOW A SECRET ABOUT 5 THAT NO ONE ELSE DOES?
BULAT ;p

38. ARE YOU .. 8/12/24 LIST?
sure

39. WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR 5?
depends lol


_______________
NUMBER 4
_______________

40. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW 4?
just now!

41. ARE YOU RELATED TO 4?
nope

44. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL WITH 4?.
sure :)

45. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN 4?
a few years

46. ARE YOU .. 8/12/24 LIST?
fer suuuuuuuuuure ;)

47. WHAT’S YOUR BEST MEMORY WITH 4?
mid v outing ;)

48. WOULD YOU GO ON A TRIP WITH 4?
hell yeah, i made up stories for her all the time about this ;)

49. HAVE ANYTHING IN COMMON WITH 4?
duh

50. DO YOU LOVE 4?
sure ;)


_____________
NUMBER 3
_____________

51. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN 3?
very long ;)

52. WHEN DID YOU LAST SEE 3?
last month :(

53. HAVE YOU EVER DATED 3?
haha sure

54. HAVE ANYTHING IN COMMON WITH 3?
duh

55. IS 3 FUNNY?
PALING

56. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL WITH 3?
used to :(

57. ARE YOU .. 8/12/24?
fer sure ;)

58. WHAT’S THE LAST THING YOU DID WITH # 3?
gossiping

59. WHAT IS SOMETHING 3 IS GOOD AT?
iron rambut lol

60. WHAT DO YOU LIKE BEST ABOUT 3?
she's very kind ;)


______________
NUMBER 2
______________

61. HOW DID YOU MEET THIS PERSON?
primary school ;)

63. WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR 2?
tgk la lol

64. WOULD YOU EVER GO OUT WITH THIS PERSON?
D'OOOOOOOOOOOOH!

65. DO YOU LOVE 2?
sure ;)

66. HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN IN TROUBLE WITH 2?
ada kot

67. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE THING TO DO WITH 2?
making conversations for people

68. DO YOU LIKE THIS PERSON MORE THAN A FRIEND?
she's like a sister ;)


_________________
And last but not least
NUMBER 1
_________________

72. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN #1?
three years ;)

73. HAVE YOU EVER KISSED NUMBER 1?
nope, ayat best lagi = GELLLI JEEE

74. ARE YOU .. 8/12/24?
sure!

75. EVER DONE ANYTHING CRAZY WITH THEM?
indeed

76. HAVE YOU EVER FOUGHT WITH 1?
mcm tak je

78. WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR 1?
tgk la lol

79. DO YOU LOVE 1?
suuure ;)

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE BEST ABOUT 1?
indescribable, chewaaah

1. Are there any previous relationships you wish could have lasted longer?
yeah

2. Whats the most annoying thing anyone could do?
play ignorant

3. When was the last time you saw the last person you kissed?
-

4. What is your full name?
shn

5. Quote a line from the song your currently listening to:
karena wanita ingin dimengerti

6. How is life going for you right now?
O-K

8. Are you keeping a secret from someone that needs to know the truth?
yeah

9. What is the last text you received?
something about tomorrow's tuition

10. What do you think of your siblings?
the greatest i could ever have

11. What was the reason you last cried?
watched pride and prejudice

12. What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
hmm

13. When was the last time you went to the doctors?
months ago

14. What do most people call you?
amyh

15. Who is your celebrity crush?
amirul azwan

16. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
yeaaaah :)

17. What do you think of people who dont have sex before marriage?
Muslim

19. Are you more independent or dependent?
independent kot, donno

20. Ever had to sneak out of someones house for some reason?
hmm no don't think so

21. Ever had a party when your parents weren't home?
nope

24. How did you meet the 2nd and 5th person in your phone address book?
malas nak check

25. How old are they?
...

26. Who will you see tomorrow?
school

27. Have you ever been cheated on?
no

29. Where will you go when you drive next?
around shah alam

30. Do you listen to loud music while your driving?
when i finally do, i will :)

31. Last person to lay on your bed with you?
mates

32. Last time you went to the mall?
last two days

33. What did you buy?
a handbag,sunglasses,a necklace,a guide book

34. Do you give out second chances too easily?
no

35. Last car ride?
home

36. Last serious conversation with your best friend?
two days ago

37. Do you hold grudges?
hmmmm i tend not to do so :)

38. Wanted more of something when you really already had enough?
yeaaah

39. Felt that no one compared to you?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

40. What can always make you laugh?
franny fine

Yevrus

69 Questions I Guarantee You've Never Answered:

1. Would you bang your neighbor?
takde masa

2. What describes your relationship status?
It's Complicated

3. Where are you?
my brother's

4. What's the last movie you've seen?
pride and prejudice

5. Do you live with your parents?
sure

6. What is your middle name?
-

7. Who have you talked to most today?
billy, finally :)

8. Do you carve pumpkins every year?
never

9. Color of your underwear?
sebok pehal

10. Color of your shirt?
purple

11. How many years have you taken a language?
my entire life

12. Who's on speed dials 2? 5? 7?
no one,no one,no one

14. Do you wish on 11:11?
x

15. Good advice if you ever go camping?
bawak seluar boleh ikat bawah ;D

16. Are you a bad influence?
no, i highly suppose

17. Do you enjoy Diet Rockstars?
apa tu?

18. Rather have your name or your siblings name?
mine

19. Would you do anything for someone else?
not anything

20. Have you ever been called a bitch?
slalu je

21. Favorite colors?
-

22. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
sure

23. What song is on?
mem

24. Are your grades good?
they're okay

25. Do you ever think people hate you for filling this out?
probably not

27. Does your best friend have a myspace?
sureee

28. Whose page did you visit last?
yonatan ;)

29. Last time you went out to lunch?
yesterday

30. What is to the right of you?
cushion

31. Who is your favorite character from Friends?
i don't watch friends

33. Do you have one or more Britney Spears CDs?
one, beli murah dkt flea market :)

35. Are you a Lost fanatic?
no, but i am for Heroes

37. Do you have a song by Ozzy Osbourne in your library?
x

38. iPod or Zune?
ipod

39. Do you watch Family Guy regularly?
x

40. King of the Hill?
x

41. Do you read trashy romance novels often?
skrg x, tkd masa

43. Do you sing obnoxiously in the car?
sometimes

44. Do you ever sing obnoxiously in the shower?
no

45. What's in your CD player right now?
damien nasi, again and again and again

46. Have you ever pretended your crush was with you?
pass

53. Are you ever a freak about cleanliness or organization?
x

54. Have you ever been to South America or Africa?
x

55. Do you know how to knit?
no.

57. Have you ever written love song lyrics yourself and put them on myspace?
pass

59. When you open your closet, what is the dominant color?
uuh black kot

60. Baskin Robbins or Coldstone?
baskin robbins

61. Physics or chemistry?
belum blaja lg :)

64. R-rated or G-rated movies?
uh

65. Walk or Run?
run = asthma, walk = calm

66. Harry Potter, Lord of the Rings, or Star Wars?
neither. harry pot yg first je

67. Fly or road trip?
BOTH ;)

68. Batman, Spiderman, or Superman?
neither

69. What's your favorite Disney movie?
princess diaries

Where's My Love - Caroline

Where's my love
The one for me
Somewhere too far
Not close enough for me to see

Where's my love
Where could you be
Someone I knew but let slip through
I'm dreaming of you
Oh love, oh love come to me

Where's my love
Give me a clue
Give me a time
Show me a place
I might find you

Where's my love
Don't hide from me
I'll be good to you
I will, honestly
Oh love, oh love come to me

Where's my love
The one for me
Somewhere too far
Not close enough for me to see

Where's my love
Now I see
Hoping someday you'll bring the lovely ending
Oh love, oh love come to me
Oh love, oh love come to me

F You

last but not least,

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?

heissshibbal

On Hiatus

i REALLY have to be :/

PMR is like coming in less than 20 days! *at wits end x348769

had my maths test today.

it was okay, i'm being hopeful.

the best part was, i got to take the test in my very own class! oh how i miss them :')

i was in there for the whole day, sooooo relaxing. like i'm on a vacation 0_o ok not funny

planned to go to the library,

but ended up asking billy to come over.

so we studied together while listening to songs and munching on crackers.

and,

she liked my new bag ;) she said it looks brand new and she couldn't believe it's only RM15!!!! tehee

yeah so,

i really have to hang myself.

away from all these internet stuff.

for only two weeks.

let's see if i can.

:)

i'll BRB!


smooches

Poem

And so whenever you sway baby,

Nothing else can get me;

Cause every gesture of yours,

Make my heart falls.


:)


i made it for diner boy! lol ok

Geli Je

:D

i'm like, so addicted to that phrase right now x)

everything's been nice, plus my newly found obsession which is not helping at all.

there's so much to tell!

YESTERDAY

went early to billy's and prepared myself there, with shaif and billy and her family and all.

went to the wedding with other friends.

we were the amatur usher-ersss.

blablablabla.

billy was pretty :)

went to lala's then, and sleptover :)

we talked about BOYS, obviously.

and i was like so obsessed, of this recent thing that's bugging me.

-having crushes, or being liked etc

it was sooooo much fun!

we were dead tired and all.

hmm mcm tu je.



TODAY

lala followed me to Amcorp.

we wore the same clothes! lol lala went mad but i didn't bother :P

helped papa a lot more than ever,

and bought soooooo many things!

ok not sooooooooo many, but good ones ;)

1. a Louis Master shades - RM40

2. a DELICIOUS handbag or wtv bag you call it, so-informed from Australia - RM15 !!!!!!

3. a guide book that's soooo good - RM13 !

4. a long necklace just to get back my 10 ringgits cause of booking a necklace i didn't then take - RM17

5. uuh, i think that's all?

yeah, i didn't bring any money so felt guilty of using papa's. i'm GONNA pay back, really. so all i need now is a lipstick/wtv to camouflage my =.=' lips.

i'm so happy about the bag and the shades, will post pictures of it (i'm so busy right now!)

AND THEN,

the good part :DDD

we went to send back all the hantaran, which is in damansara,

and then..

we went to the curve..

and then..

i begged my family to have dinner at TGI instead of Tony Roma's..

(when i didn't even feel like eating fajitas and all)

and then..

:)

:)

:)

:)

I SAW THE DINER BOY!!!!!!!!

yknow, after not-so-quite a while.

x)(x

he was sooooooooooooooo freaking cute.

lala said he's not, but i just forced her to agree so just to make me feel good.

so everytime i asked her "die comel kan?" she will nod :D

and today, we laughed TOO MUCH.

we're always like that if we're together. laugh about people, songs, everything!

and we had fun usha-ing boys.

esp Q Haide! lmao

and bdk korek hidung,

GELI JE!

hahahahahahahahaahahahaha =))

today's so much funnnnnn

so much fuunn....

not studying at all for the whole weekend...

and having my maths test tomorrow.

*at wits ends.

oh well.

at least i met diner boy once again!

=]

Mein Herzschlag

buduuus.

Yevrus

Five things I plan to do before I die.

01 meet MF


02 know my destiny and get married


03 live in madinah


04 give my parents luxury


05 meet my friends back with their kids




Seven things I can do.

01 make a sound with my nose that sounds like "tepuk tilam"


02 laugh like franny fine


03 hoola hoop


04 stare someone as if i'm a cannibal and not meaning it


05 in other words, making good eye contact


06 write well


07 last but not least, i know how to love and appreciate a brother




Five most repeated phrases/words.

01 damn


02 ritee


03 goddamnit


04 haaaaaisshibbal


05 ohmygod




Seven physical traits I look for in the opposite sex.

01 pretty lips :}


02 tall, taller than me


03 clean from any hair (the face)


04 nice smile, a dimple maybe?


05 a GOOD hair


06 a just nice body


07 sejuk mata memandang B)



Three names I go by.

01 s


02 h

03 fi




Three physical things I like about myself.

01 my eyes


02 my nice legs


03 my mature look




Three physical things I don't like about myself.

01 my lips, sometimes


02 my weird nose


03 my french fries fingers




Three things that scare me.

01 the after life


02 frogs


03 dark coloured maps




Three drinks (alcoholic/non)

01 cold water


02 iced milo


03 mama's nescafe freeze




Three of my everyday essentials.

01 uhh,anything edible?


02 internet =.='


03 boys




Three things I'm wearing right now.

01 cap


02 tracks


03 shirt




Three of my favourite movies.

01 The Sixth Day


02 Now And Forever


03 The Guy Was Gorgeous, He Was Cool




Two truths and a lie.

01 i love my new class


02 i like too many people


03 i'm always lazy when it comes to washing the hair




Three things about the opposite sex that appeals to me.

01 intelligence


02 maturity


03 considerable style




Three careers I am considering, or have considered.

01 writer


02 accountant


03 photographer



xoxo

Grow Hair, Grow

bila lah rambutku mau panjang juga..

I'll Stop, Someday

somehow, somewhere, my hope is still there.

you're just telling me stuff like i do,

but deep down inside you like me too.



hah-a hodoh betul literature aku.

Someone's A Loser

so if i'm a loser, i'm not the least worried anymore. cause someone's loser-er.

so if i'm a weibsstuck, i won't mind. cause she's worse.

worse than EVER, beyond my thoughts and expectations.

after what lala told me.

her being scandalous with almost everyone, people i never expect o_o

AND,

her pic.

O_O

with those bra straps and all?

seriously, even if i'm such a stuck up bitch,

at least i know i have a value.

and i'm not cheap.

i don't show spherical boobs in public !

unbelievable, really.

MY Artwork

for my art group.

cheh, konon.

well i want to be serious in this.

though i'm not a bit good at it.

people see that as a tree.

when it's actually a stickman...

=.='

Einsam

yeah, that's what i am now.

i also feel empty.


YESTERDAY

started with tense. had my bad tudung day. pagi2 buat hal. pfft.

passed assembly, accompanied lala, crying in front of me cause of the monthly pain, and then she went home.

in class, i dropped my meal from home, which were 6 cheese cocktails =.='

bergolek golek atas lantai, soooo embarrassing.

(i'm forgetting everything that happened only yesterday...)

and then, uuh...

oh, right.

i then got nothing for my break (i didn't even bring any coins) and so i had to pow my friends.

talked to R a lot more.

he sat behind me while PAI again.

after a while,

R: i told you she's a satan.

i didn't turn.

R: siti..

i turned.

Me: hm?

and we talked etc

Me: it's funny you're calling me siti.

i said, difficult-ly with my head turning to the back.

R: i don't know your name.

i was already looking back at the board i think, but i smiled.

R: Barking..

i turned, and smiled. and jeling too i suppose. without purpose.

and i realized :

my fav subject is : PAI

my least fav subject is : Science

so boring, yet while PAI i'm always entertained by ustazah's stories of madinah :)

ape lg yeh...

went to tuition, went to solat hajat..

DK wore black :)

Me to my friend D: i won't have the chance to talk to him.

and suddenly he was right beside me and D burst out laughing while we were taking the food.

(there's much more bits, but i'm not having having any mood to write about him already)

then i wasted RM2.10 once again on a pack of M&Ms to check on the 7E guy when my brother dropped me to buy dinner at a nearby restaurant. he wasn't there though.



TODAY

woke up at 4+

mama went around 0530.


today was normal.

had more laughs at break.

and Datin made the best joke EVER.

"Z, rambut awak tu dah boleh buat siput dah."

rofl x10000000000000000

:D

didn't go to lala's, not in the mood hanging with a bunch of people.

not that it made any difference at home, nak blaja =.='

called MF, since i thought i should cause i haven't in such a long time.

blablabla.

he told me that J broke up already.

hmmph, i'm happy for him.

got depressed, chatted with C about my emptiness.

then i got the piza delivery :

pizza,spag,chicken wings.

large,large,4 pcs.

shared with my dad.

and after consuming half of all of those, i felt like a sealion :} and NOT empty.

hah-a.

and am online-ing aaaaaaaall day after school, ignoring everything else.




i mean, about this whole thing i'm obsess in, i don't know....

am i too ugly???

C said i'm more than words.

then why can't normal people see meeeee????

why Afl? why An?

Afl liking me for three yrs, An describing me as the prettiest girl in school.

and even Dn is sending korean songs from youtube :/

why isn't there any nice ones?

hmmmmph.

is there anything else i'm supposed to jolt down?

wait.. lemme think.

You Are The Love That Came Without Warning

We started as friends

But something happened inside me

Now I'm reading into everything

But there's no sign you hear the lightning, baby

And you don't ever notice how I stare when we're alone

Or wonder why I keep you on the phone

You are my very first thought in the morning

And my last at nightfall

I've wanted you so long but on and on you get me wrong

I more then adore you but since you never seem to see

I'll sing it in a love song

Men

Name 10 of the Opposite sex.


(first off, jgn perasan)
1. wb
2. sl
3. dk
4. k
5. 'i
6. y
7. zaw
8. abu
9. wan
10. v
(sorry if your name isn't here)

Would you rather party with 1 or 7?
they're both fun

Marry 2 or 6?
2, for sure. nak duduk madinah :)

Kill 3 or 8?
neither ! i can't live w/o abu's overrated jokes and dk's corny behaviour

Date 9 or 10?
10 =)

Make Out with 4 or 7?
0_o

Cuddle With 6 or 8?
y

Have Kids With 4 or 5?
neither lol

Live With 1 or 9?
rather 1, takkan wan kot !

Be Stuck on an Island with 2 or 5?
2 :)

Trade Lives with 8 or 10?
8, dpt duduk rumah besar, dpt shopping...

Wake Up Next To 1 or 9?
rather 1, no way waaaaan

Completely Disown 3 or 7?
3, i knew 7 for quite long already

Eyes?
10 kot, or 2

Smile?
10 !

Face?
1,2,10

Body?
pass :D

Abs?
zaw

Ass?
1 terlebih bontot

Style?
1, lain semua immature, EXCEPT FOR ABU


A Few More Questions..


Has 3 ever hurt you?
yes! lmao

Have you ever hurt 4?
nooo

Who's the funniest?
abu FULL STOP

Can you beat up 8?
boleh sangat

When is the last time you saw 9?
never :/

Who's the smartest?
i bet it's 2 :)

How long have you known 2?
two years, but never talked lol

Who is 6 dating/crushing on?
no clue

Does 7 smell good?
he smells like when my dad's just after mowing the lawn sometimes, but i still like it ;)

Who will you still be talking to in 15 years?
1,5,6,7,8,9 and 2! hopefully

57 Girl's Confessions

1. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead?
tak pernah melalui

2. A big poofy dress or a short party dress?
neither,i have no hair to go with it

3. What would you do if you received a long love letter?
:)

4. Group dates or single dates?
depends

5. Do you hate it when guys act different around their friends?
yes

6. Are diamonds a girl’s best friend?
diamonds are mami jarums' best friend

7. Is your hair up or down today?
down

8. Do you straighten your hair?
rarely

9. Favorite mascara?
-

10. Do you get your nails done?
rarely

11. Small or large purses?
depends on the mood

12. In your purse, what are your must haves?
coins,plaster,paper soap,floss,tissues

13. Jeans or sweats?
either

14. Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that’s uncomfortable?
no,duh

15. Do you text message a lot?
used to

16. What would you do if you got pregnant?
dayyum

17. What’s your favorite color?
-

18. Heels or flats?
flats,since i'm too tall for heels and people will start saying "dah tinggi pun tak sedar diri lagi" =.='

19. Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
DUH

20. Would you ever leave the house without make-up on?
boleh

21. Walmart or Target?
i've only been to target, i think

22. Do you wear collared shirts?
even if i do, it's going to be covered with my scarf

23. Do you like preppy boys?
probably

24. Do you think lip gloss is the best!?
no,not at all

25. Do you own any big sunglasses?
head-covered faces + shades = a complete joke

26. How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
depends

27. Do you like to wear band-aids?
no,my wrist is TOO small

28. Do you like skater boys?
not much

29. Do you often wish there was something you could change?
rarely

30. Gold or silver?
-

31. Do you like to receive flowers?
no, i don't think so

32. Do you like surfer boys?
not much, or probably, maybe, i don't know

33. Do you dress up for the holidays?
no

34. Do you like to wear dresseses?
i'm head-covered

35. On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
9

36. In the last 48 hours have you hung out with a guy?
sure

37. Would you date a guy shorter than you?
hell no, but i can't be choosy since i'm too tall 8-l

38. Do you like to hold hands?
no, maybe no

39. What is the youngest you would date?
two,three,four,five... datuk K rilek je

40. What is the oldest you would date?
i don't know

41. What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
face

42. Is it hott when guys sweat?
CERTAIN guys

43. What is the best feature in a guy?
lips

44. Do you like making eye contact?
yes

46. Would you kill for chocolate?
O_o

47. Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
no

48. On a scale from 1-10 how fun is shopping?
2

49. Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
(the nanny) sekejap je

50. Do you yell a lot?
no, but i shriek when i laugh, just to show excess enthusiasm

51. Do you wear sweatpants/pajamas to school/work?
we have uniforms

52. Have you ever dressed unlike yourself to impress a guy?
no

53. Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
no

54. What makeup could you not live w/ out?
none, but just to answer this - eyeliner

55. Do you fall in love easily?
bkn fall in love sekali dua ke?

56. Do you have cramps?
mhm

57. Do you think you have the bestest friend ever?
sure

Valentine - The Get Up Kids

i'm not fully convinced that there's something wrong with this,could another point of view, baised and untrue, tear me away from you?


will you be my valentine if i'm a world away?
apologies are breaking me
the constants aren't so constant anymore
for two days i wait for calls to come through
tonight for me translates to yesterday to you
you bend and you wave when you're barely away
i wish i could say tonight that when you bend
and wave goodbye you'd take me with you

Polaris - Jimmy Eat World

When you go, I'll let you be,but you're killing everything in me


Get down on your knees
Whisper what I need
Something pretty
Something pretty

I feel that when I'm old
I'll look at you and know
The world was beautiful



I'm done, there's nothing left to show
I try but can't let it go
Are you happy where you're standing still?
Do you really want the sugar pill?
I'll wake up tomorrow and I'll start
Tonight it feels so hard
As the train approaches Gare Du Nord
As I'm sure your kiss remains employed
Am I only dreaming?

Did I Say That I Loathe You?

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Yevrus : My Top 6

1. alaska young
2. billy brown
3. nana nurgaya
4. john cena
5. cerabona vitorodon
6. william beckett

2. Are you older than number 2?
- no, 1 month younger :)

3. How did you meet 3?
- jiran blkg rumah

4. If you were crying would 1 cheer
- hell yeah

5. Do all six of them know EACH OTHER?
- sure

6. Where is Number 3 right now?
- blkg rumahku ;D

8. Who have you known the longest?
- nana nurgaya muah

9. Who have you known the shortest?
- william beckett =)

10. Have you been to any of their
house?
- william beckett belum lg =)

12. Whos the most awkward to be around?
- none, duh

13. Are you taller than number 1?
- i'm taller than every each of em, hopefully not WB

14. Whos most likely to repost this?
- likely no one

15.Who would be there for you, through
thick and thin?
- every each of em, i love you scumpbags

16. Who do you see the most?
- used to be billy :(

17. Who knows the most about you?
- except WB, he has a lot more to know ;)

18. Do you argue with number 3?
- masa kecik2 dulu

19. Does number 1 have the same b-day
as you?
- nooo

20. Would you break the law with
number 2?
- sure

21. Who did you last get a text from?
- cerabona

22. Who do you talk to the most?
- except WB, dah jarang

23. Have you kissed any of them?
- nope

24. Are you dating your top?
- nak dating dgn WB

25. How did you meet your #4?
- school

26. Is number 3 older than you?
- i'm 1 day older ;)

27. Do your top 6 all go to the same
school?
- william beckett sibuk buat show

BY THE WAY

i'm telling you, the fan in my class freaks me out. it's like it can fall down any minute and cut all the people's head in front.


ok so i tell EVERY SINGLE BIT, but this is the way i am.

READ it, or leave it.

Breaking The ...

i don't even know why, why, why, WHY, WHYYYY????!!!!!

The Man

i was just thinking about him, and then he appeared online.

we chatted, i showed him some of the engagement pictures.

that's all.

god he made me feel something.

tsktsktsk

x(




indesrcibable

Yevrus

1. What's your style of dressing?
casual

2. The ring tone on ur cell phone is?
-

3. How do u usually answer the phone?
hello

4. What's ur motto in life?
practise makes perfect

5. People would describe ur laugh as?
i don't know, but i would describe it as fran fine-like

6. At the movies, or reading books, u prefer love story or comedy?
both

7. Are u crushing on anybody right now?
rambang mata B)

8. Does she/he knows that u like him/her?
entoh

9. What's the most important thing in relationships?
taktau

10. What's the most important thing in ur life?
my brother

11. What do you fear of?
frogs,seriously

12. What would you do if someone admits he/she likes you?
i'll smile

13. Does your partner have to be rich, with a convertible and looks?
ikut nasib aku lah ;)

14. Your blind date is wearing sandal with socks, what do u think?
i won't mind :)

15. You easily attracted to the opposite sex because of their?
lips,intelligence,style

16. What is ur ideal career?
writer

17. On a typical saturday morning u are...
...

18. Do u gossip too much?
nope

19. Your best friend just dated your crush, what do u do?
i'll get over it uber easily

20. Would you ever spread rumour about you best friend?
no

21. What's your favourite television show?
the nanny

22. The most romantic movie you watched?
now and forever, a moment to remember

23. What's your favourite color?
-

24. Do you play sports?
golf

25. What's your favourite subject in school?
all of em

26. What will u do if a hot but not so intelligent guy talks to u?
be friends

27. What are u doing right now?
bercangkung, listening to damien nasi and within temptation simultaneously

28. Who do u share ur secrets with?
everyone =.='

29. Current song stuck in ur head?
within temptation - memories

30. What time is it now?
still early

Yevrus

1. What's worse - Physical or Mental cheating?
mental cheating, duh

2. Is it easier to forgive or forget?
forgive, duh

3. Can men and women be "Just Friends"?
duh =.='

4. How do you feel about dating Co-Workers?
no clue, i'm a student

5. All expenses paid vacation to anywhere?
melbourne *hopeful

6. What was your last meal?
ding ding

8. When you are "In Love" do you notice other people?
never been

9. Is flirting cheating?
no?

10. Would you rather have 1 great friend or 5 pals?
both

11. If someone called you a bitch would you be offended?
yes i would

12. Are you ok with your boyfriend/girlfriend being friends with an ex?
don't have any

13.Would you live with someone without marrying them?
can't

14. Favorite sport?
hoola hooping

16. Do you squeeze toothpaste from the middle or end of the tube?
...

17. How do you feel about tanning booths?
i'm originally tanned

18. Friends with benefits?
...

19. Do you believe in angels?
sure

20. Would you rather take pictures or be in pictures?
both

21. Hot Carl or Blumpkin?
-

22. Ever kissed a random person and then walked away?
0_o nooooooo

23. Have you ever had any type of relationship with a married person?
0_o i'm fifteen...

24. What color looks best on you?
no clue

25. If you could play any sport professionally what would it be?
golf

26. Ever break up with someone and regret it?
-

27. Are you a jealous person?
extremely absolutely apparently semua ly lah

28. Would you ever have plastic surgery?
no

30. Who has the sexiest accents?
british and aussies

*31 has currently gone missing*

32. Favorite song?
byk

33. Favorite movie?
byk

34. What's your occupation?
student

35. What is your astrology sign?
gemini

36. Are you a beach, country or city person?
city

37. Have you ever seen or called anyone you met on MySpace?
both, yeah

38. Have you ever had a "secret affair"?
yes i have

39. If you could own a non-traditional pet which would it be?
a cub

40. Favorite show/movie as a child?
the jungle book, chipmunk's adventure

41. Where do you spend most of your money?
food and books

42. Are you currently working at a job that you hate?
a so called freelance prefect

43. have you ever been so heart broken that you called in sick to work?
-

44. Favorite summer drink?
it's summer ALL the time here

45. Can you change a car tire?
no

46. Favorite candle scent?
-

47. Would you consider yourself adventurous?
probably

48. What is your MySpace profile song?
within temptation - memories

49. Favorite concert attended?
i've only been to pop shuvit's

50. Would you date an already attached man / woman?
nooooo =.='

51. Would you sing Karaoke in front of co-workers?
possibly

52. Can you shoot pool?
can't

53. Do you like your siblings' significant others?
sure

54. Can you drive a stick?
can't

55. When you marry will you wear white?
sure

56. Have you ever sat and hoped for a phone call?
tanga na ako

57. Ever skip school and spend the day at the beach?
there's no beach in sa

58. Fav. TV show?
the nanny

59. Last piercing you got?
ears, very young at age

M&Ms

i finished one packet of RM2.10 m&ms (kecik je) and now my teeth hurts.here's the story :

my dad picked me up after tuition and asked me to take some passport pictures from the photo shop, then i was thinking of checking out the 7E guy, wondering when does his shift starts, so my dad made a turn, and i went into 7E and turned out he's not there yet so i had to buy something so i bought m&ms....


well hello there.

today started with a suspend. my mum was about to send me to school but the car was acting weird, turned out one of the tyre was flat, we might just died (padahal rumah dekat je) so i had to walk, five minutes to role call. i already planned to say "tayar pancit td" but i wasn't late, haa :D


classes were normal, and i just realized there are so many things happening in september. goosh.. it's september, i just realized..

well anyway, i will be attending billy's brother's wedding this saturday, all of us, and abu made a joke :

"aku buat sampin yg meleret sampai bawah"

that cracked me up badly! with his funny gesture, lmao

and LB told me about the pakistan guy in our school, about his English paper, it's THE FUNNIEST THING I'VE EVER HEARD

went to the library with C, both let out problems etc, and both motivated each other (okay,he motivated me)

saw WB's friends, A,U,A'a best friend and others sape2 je laaaa.

they still waved at me happily. i wonder if they knew what happened.

on the other hand, kim and lala told me they bumped into WB and he pulled a face, i was mad at first but then i thought he does that without noticing. i know him, i KNOW i know him :/


anyway,

AH (you-don't-have-to-know-who) was there too. he peaced at kim (she camed and sat with me for a while) and at me, but i just stared and looked away, when i actually wanted to talk to him cause he's leaving for man u tomorrow :( damn whatever la kan


went for tuition.

i passed through S (my competitor) when i was going to my dad's car, wanted to say hi, but it didn't come out, and my legs were nearly trembling 0_o

and i'm afraid i'm getting C's symptoms, burping because of deppression lol


tomorrow will be having solat hajat at school.

and friday, lala's !

saturday, wedding!

sunday, movie/anything else!

yipeeeeee

Allahu Akbar

ALLAH MAHA BESAR ALLAH MAHA BESAR





SEORANG DOKTOR NEUROLOGI MENEMUI KEAJAIBAN ALLAH ........



Assalam Mu'alaikum Wbrth! Dan Salam Sejahtera! Sahabat2 semua yang Islam dan juga yang Bukan Islam... bacalah Email ini dari sahabat yg menetap di US:

"Seorang doktor di Amerika Syarikat telah memeluk Islam kerana beberapa keajaiban yang ditemuinya dalam penyelidikannya. Dia amat kagum dengan penemuan tersebut, sehingga tidak dapat diterima oleh akal fikiran.

Dia adalah seorang Doktor Neurologi .

Setelah memeluk Islam, dia amat yakin akan perubatan secara Islam dan dengan itu telah membuka sebuah klinik yang bertemakan "Perubatan Melalui Al-Qur'an" .

Kajian perubatan melalui Al-Qur'an membuatkan ubat-ubatannya berteraskan apa yang terdapat di dalam Al-Qur'an. Di antara kaedah-kaedah yang digunakan termasuklah berpuasa, madu lebah, biji hitam (black seed) dan sebagainy a.

Apabila ditanya bagaimana dia tertarik untuk memeluk Islam,

maka doktor tersebut memberitahu bahawa semasa beliau melakukan kajian urat saraf, terdapat beberapa urat saraf di dalam otak manusia yang tidak dimasuki oleh darah . Padahal setiap inci otak manusia memerlukan darah yang cukup untuk berfungsi secara normal.

Setelah membuat kajian yang memakan masa, akhirnya beliau mendapati Bahawa darah tidak akan memasuki urat saraf di dalam otak manusia melainkan pada ketika seseorang itu sedang sujud semasa mengerjakan Sembahyang!!!

Urat tersebut memerlukan darah hanya untuk Beberapa sukatan yang tertentu sahaja. Ini bermaksud bahawa darah hanya akan memasuki urat tersebut mengikut kadar sembahyang waktu yang diwajibkan oleh Islam......Begitulah keagungan ciptaan Allah!!!

tidak menunaikan sembahyang , akan otaknya tidak Akan dapat menerima darah yang secukupnya untuk berfungsi secara normal!!!

Oleh yang demikian, kejadian manusia ini sebenarnya adalah untuk menganuti agama Islam 'sepenuhnya' kerana sifat fitrah kejadiannya memang telah dikaitkan oleh Allah dengan agama-Nya yang indah ini."



PETUA IMAM SYAFIE



4 PERKARA UNTUK SIHAT

Empat perkara menguatkan badan

1. makan daging

2. memakai haruman

3. kerap mandi

4. berpakaian dari kapas



Empat perkara melemahkan badan

1. banyak berkelamin (bersetubuh)

2. selalu cemas

3. banyak minum air ketika makan

4. banyak makan bahan yang masam



Empat perkara menajamkan mata

1. duduk mengadap kiblat

2. bercelak sebelum tidur

3. memandang yang hijau

4. berpakaian bersih



Empat perkara merosakkan mata

1. memandang najis

2. melihat orang dibunuh

3. melihat kemaluan

4. membelakangi kiblat



Empat perkara menajamkan fikiran

1. tidak banyak berbual kosong

2. rajin bersugi (gosok gigi)

3. bercakap dengan orang soleh

4. bergaul dengan para ulama



4 CARA TIDUR



1. TIDUR PARA NABI

Tidur terlentang sambil berfikir tentang kejadian langit dan

bumi.



2. TIDUR PARA ULAMA' & AHLI IBADAH

Miring ke sebelah kanan untuk memudahkan terjaga untuk solat

malam.



3. TIDUR PARA RAJA YANG HALOBA

Miring ke sebelah kiri untuk mencernakan makanan yang banyak

dimakan.



4. TIDUR SYAITAN

Menelungkup/tiarap seperti tidurnya ahli neraka.



* Kalau rajin .. Tolong sebarkan maklumat ini kepada saudara

Muslim - Muslimat yang lain agar menjadi amalan kepada kita semua. Ilmu

yang bermanfaat ialah salah satu amal yang berkekalan bagi orang yang

mengajarnya meskipun dia sudah mati.

Wunder Junge

i would write down every single word you spit if i could,

i would paint your face on my wall if i could,

i would tell you if i could.



so hug me tight when we meet,

cause i've been waiting along every beat.

Yevrus

11 deep questions that will really tell
you something about me. Not stupid
questions like "what is your favorite
lip gloss?"

1. What is more difficult for you,
looking into someones eyes when you are
telling someone how you feel, or
looking into someones eyes when they
are telling you how they feel?

both? they're both easy and diff, depends


2. Think of the last time you were
REALLY angry. WHY were you angry?

WB was being bitchy


3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to
Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in
the back of the plane. You have enough
time to make ONE phone call. Who would
you call?

MF


4. You are at the doctor's office and
he has just informed you that you have
approximately one month to live.

(1) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are
going to die?

possibly, since i can't even keep my own secrets


(2) What do you do with your remaining
days?

pray, bertaubat, confess etc


(3) Would you be afraid?

very much


5. You can have one of the following
two things: trust/love. which would you
choose?

in love there will be trust, so love


6. You are walking down the street on
your way to work. There is a dog
drowning in the canal on the side of
the street. Your boss has told you if
you are late even once more, you are
fired. Do you save the dog?

sure, who gives a damn about the boss, he might considerate, or i'll look for another gazillion job


7. You are unfaithful to your
spouse/significant other. Do you tell
him/her? Why or why not?

shibbal. i will when it comes to the right time, bcs i have to


8. Your best friend confesses that
he/she has feelings for you more then
just friendship. He/she is falling in
love with you. What do you do/say?

not sure, my best friend is a girl


9. Think of the last person whom you
know that died. You have the chance to
give them 1 hour of life back, but you
have to give one year of your life. Do
you do it?

anything to see fauwaz again


10. Are you the kind of friend that you
would want to have as a friend?

yes


11. Does love = sex?

perhaps, i don't know i'm young



xoxo

Within Temptation - Memories

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