Highlight Of The Year

i suppose this is the real depression feeling. pening kepala tahap gaban after a sleepless night and pressure and an empty stomach and unstoppable tears. sakit sampai cheekbone, sampai gigi, daamn.

not that i cried bcs of what those teachers would always say, "NNT DAH AMBIK RESULT BARU NAK MENANGIS,MENYESAL BLAB BLAB BLAB".

i don't regret a thing in life, never ever. it's fated and written to be that way. so you just have to deal with it and just believe that everything happens for a reason; either a good reason or just a lesson for your future.

no, my tears are not for regrets, but the pressure people keep piling on me. so convinced i'll succeed and all, and finally knowing i won't be able to give what they've been wanting all this while, cracks my head into pieces, theorically.

anyway, i've 7As :)ok la kan. the B is for KHB. so i guess i won't be going to any boarding school but hey, i'll do everything i can to reach my well-planned future. you can have my word.

i couldn't control my emotions today, of all the pressure, planning on doing and giving things i don't deserve, were so goddamn tiring. malas nak crite panjang. takda mood. perhaps it should just be here in my mind. kept loosely, and finally day by day it will slip out slowly, leaving just an empty space for a new memory.

fwaa, gempak pulak ayat tu :D

there's so much to say tp taktau mana nak mula and all... well let's talk about my previous days.


DEC 25

christmas, abg cuti. it was a spending quality time with abg the whole day ! brought me to bukit raja for WARLORDS, tp full (hampa...mesti penuh dgn lengchais) so my brother treated me a world clss chocolate from baskin robbin. mhhhhmmmm sedapnyaa :9 and then round round round, pegi subang, pegi kopitiam. had teh tarik, bali fucu, cincau susu and roti stim. PEEERGH, sedap gila. oh and rice crackers cicah kaya. nyuuum. lps tu pegi summit beli 6 dvd. buy 5 free 1.

1. kill bill
2. kill bill 2
3. catch me if you can
4. rush hour 3
5. the number 23 (!)
6. my brother's pick, taktau nama crite

and got our family a subway sandwich. baunya, melekat dkt tangan sampai tgh malam. my brother told stories about his overseas experiences and all. it was such a nice day :)


DEC 26

went to KD. at night, picked LB up and finally she got to have her first sleepover at mine x) but we didn't sleep at all. berangan lebih ! menceceh aje. i went for the loo for about a thrillion times. haha.


TODAY

itulah dia. the fun part today was, i called MF and cried like hell at him. ROFL. serious shit i was being so ridiculous. but he said he's going to get me something. i hope he'll keep his words.

hmmm.... itu saja lah kot. mau tgk gachibaka. ciao